it's looking like it's time for change, it's time to just move on.

the people i want are not in this town. only the people i've learned to love reside.

i remember feeling so free after dad died driving out of city borders. do i belong somewhere else right now? is that what these signs are saying?

naturally occuring my luck has run own. people have figured out that the "act i play" is not an act. friends have discovered that i've got no potential to be tame.

there's just got to be a place out there for me...there's got to be people who i can relate with. no one seems to get it- no one seems to understand my personality.

actually, come to think of it, a few people do...but very few.

what was i talking about? i'm on so much caffiene that i'm jittery. i have placement tests today then i'm off to work agian...but with no complaints.

i've found some one there. some one who's seen Dark Star, some one i feel i can relate to, some one who makes me smile. and even if this is temporary like i know it is, it's still something.

how did i start this entry...i have no transfer of thought.

::scrolls back up::

oh yeah, stupid cliche shit, eh? EH?? blah blah, no one wants to hear that.

i can't wait to hang out with Kate! yee!! Dudeness, Kate, i talked with Tony last night/this morning and pulled up pictures of Steven and compared them. Oh yes...yesssss i want a snake. no, seriously- i want a snake. this one:

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that's a snake...i was going to go find a pictures of a pretty yellow snake that's in the Amazon but i realized i was too lazy for that shit and i have heartburn but if i take my Prevacid then i'll be shitting all the time and that's no fun.

hahahaha, Officer Gulden called me today! Officer Gulden! dude, that guy used to give me ride all the time when i was a kid. that's so cool.

anyway, Pokey- my good dear friend, sucks. but, i'm still not threatened by her stupid police threats. i know what it's really all about.

I need to move out of state. Soon.

Any suggestions? oh yeah, there's no way for people to contact me unless they know my email or screen name...which you can't find on diaryland b/c they're all my old ones and i hate everyone out there because there's either some fucker harrassing me or what not and i don't care. that was a run-on. no good.

my diary is locked right now, huh. well, for a good reason so whatever. i'll unlock it soon enough. it doesn't matter, i just felt like talking a little.

i already wrote in my little diary all my girly thoughts. i feel so ashamed- i know i shouldn't. but i do. i have such an imagination. i want to go swimming...naked. that was random, sorry. not really.

we're out of bread already. damn. i just bought some yester-freaken-day. word.

well, see ya. (who am i talking to?)

<-gordon & maroon->