2 am and i just walked through the door

it's raining out,

and worms are everywhere.

i can not forget the look in his face when he talked to me tonight

it's so easy, and it's so easy...

tonight, i'll go to bed tonight happy

and when i wake up tomorrow morning i will not complain,

all because i got to talk to him tonight.

Yes, one day i want a family. I want to love the man i marry. I want a couple kids...2 would be ideal. 2 girls. and they would play in a turtle-shaped sand box during the days- 2 cute girls sitting in the yard.

reminicing tonight; i forget sometimes how much i miss my dad. x-files, paintballing, rare steaks and salt, the white plates and plain, simple silverwear. the black fold-out couch gramma gave us...it was the couch he died on.

i miss my daddy, he was my hero. i miss talking to him, i miss just smelling him...holidays, everyday life after school. he is my inspiration, the wind blowing on my face.. comforting me and making me feel secure. he is here. but not in a way i wish he was... and if i could, i would hug him and hold him in my arms and just say "good bye"

<-gordon & maroon->