she makes a mountain out of a mole hill.

and now i completely understand her obsession...probably because i've been in her shoes before. not only do i understand how i felt, but why i felt it.

i knew i could never have a relationship with him. i wanted one. i wanted one so bad, and liked him so much, that any kind of relationship would do.

insert girl. a very sweet girl, but very young girl, amanda.

note to readers: i am not insulting or glorifying our friend, amanda, here. just observing and learning. and accepting and understanding.

we all wonder why she is so crazy over nick. we look at nick, we think "huh...why?"

don't get me wrong, i love the boy. but, he's not worth obsession. hardly anyone is. actually, no one is worth that much obsession.

but we have to understand. she saw him one day but was never able to make a satisfying connection/relationship with him.

she is always so worked up over how she thinks he feels about her. but, she won't ever understand that he just doesn't care. he never really had any strong opinion about her. that is, until she started trying too hard. at that time, it set the balance off to the "unnatractive" side.

now, she worries so much- for 3 years now.

after 3 years she probably, and most likely, became so desperate for any type of connection or relationship with nick. subconsiosly she is satisfied with her relationship with him now, because at least it is one. a horrible one.

yet, nothing she can ever say or do will ever change it. she messed it up so bad that it won't change. so, now all she has left is the one she has now. there are no other options...so, now we all have to live in her lust until her thing for nick finally wears off.

anyone know where i'm coming from?

<-gordon & maroon->